Cancer Does Not Have Me
by Christine Dittmann
I have cancer
But cancer does not have me.
Twenty-one chemos, fifteen CT Scans,
and one hundred blood draws later
and still cancer does not have me.
Cancer teases me,
a tumor here and a tumor there
saying, “Catch me if you can.”
I can and I will,
because cancer does not have me.
Cancer will not and cannot take
away my memories, my future,
my laughter, and my tears.
“Wow, you’re stubborn,” cancer says.
And I reply, “You are right,
I’m not going anywhere.”
For I tricked cancer.
Love, hugs, and kind words
are my medicine to share.
So for each additional chemo,
CT Scan, or blood draw I can rejoice
and say, “See I may have cancer, but
cancer does not have me.”
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Christine Dittmann is an ovarian cancer survivor living in Walker, LA. She says that writing is her therapy.
This article was originally published in Coping® with Cancer magazine, May/June 2008.